So here it is. I can’t believe I’m in this place. Great, I already have tears welling up and I’ve written one sentence.
God is so just faithful. He is so present. He is so persistent.
I can’t tell you how hard it was for me to get to this place of vulnerability: physically, emotionally, spiritually, ALL THE WAYS. But at every single step, he has mirrored it and proven Himself faithful. He doesn’t ask you to step out and not walk with you.
Something I’ve come back to and held onto throughout this process is one of my life’s quotes from Marianne Williamson:
“Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
I want to give you permission, give you a little push. Are you thinking of every reason in the world of why YOU aren't included in this? I have a lot of reasons not to step out, a lot of reasons to be afraid, we all do. But it's not worth it to dwell there.
Are you mistaking humility for insecurity? I used the “humble” card for so long. I was nervous about people thinking I was trying to be in the spotlight, the thing is… I am. Because I actually believe I have something worth sharing and know I was born to manifest the glory of God!
I know I sound super bold right now...but it took years for me to get here and it's still a decision I have to make every day. It is not easy. So many things get in the way of us pursuing our true potential: Fear, contentment, complacency, doubt, insecurity. Every part of this journey has been me pushing past ALL of those things. But pushing past it has been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made and this is just the beginning!
The onset is about the start of that journey, my journey, of letting go of my clenched fists, stepping out into what isn’t comfortable but has also never felt so right.
There is a lot of crap going on everyday, personal battles vs. wars waging around us. We need as much hope as we can get. There’s no time for waiting. Whatever excuse you’re thinking of right now, it’s not good enough. Money is not a reason. Time is an excuse. Inadequacy is a lie.
The world needs your story. We need your art. We need your voice. We need your hope.
I wanted you to know, first and foremost, that more than anything, more than you enjoying my music, I hope you feel those truths. I hope this inspires you to discover that freedom for yourself. I hope you are encouraged to bring your gifts to the table...because you have something to bring.
My prayer is that this wouldn’t just be my start, but our start.
The start of letting go all that binds
All that restrains
To say no to fear
And yes to freedom
To abandon pride
And embrace healing
So to the broken and weak
To the healed and whole
For the doubter
For the known
For the one who needs to come home
For the one longing and desperate for more
For me, my dreams
For Him, his plans.
This is the beginning.
This is the start.
This is the onset.